Crafting, My Walk

Knitting for Christ

Have you ever picked up a new hobby only to wonder what you’ve gotten yourself into? Recently I’ve pulled out my knitting looms with the crazy thought to make something other than scarves and hats. I’ve checked out a few books from the library, and suddenly I feel overwhelmed. It is like reading a foreign language. I’m used to teaching myself how to do things, but every once in awhile I consider throwing in the proverbial towel, or in this case pot holder. I never expected knitting a pot holder would be such a frustrating experience.

Now, I realize this isn’t really a post focused on my walk with Jesus, but it is still connected. After all, every decision I make, every reaction I have, and every new thing I try is because of my relationship with God. Years ago I may have given up on this new learning experience, but I feel like it is something I’m being led to learn. I have this half idea, just a niggling in my heart really, that I can use this skill to spread the love of Christ. I’m not sure of the details, but I do know before I can move forward I have to learn the skill. I hope to have  a better working knowledge of loom knitting before Spring.

Prayers are always appreciated.
Yours in Christ,
Sare

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Push Back the Dark

Yesterday the effects of the stress and strain that’s been my constant companion the past two months won out, and it was a horrible day. I skipped my daily PIYO workout, because I knew I needed to use that single hour of ‘me time’ — the time my daughter completes her independent work, and my son naps– to connect more completely with God.

Darkness was overtaking me and I felt like I was drowning in a pit with no way to free myself. I needed help in a BIG way. Even though I keep my Faith (there’s MY word of the year!), in our Lord, sometimes I find myself holding onto too much of the burden instead of truly letting it go to him in not only word, but deed as well.

For me, it’s easy to tell Him I’m giving my troubles to him. It isn’t so easy to actually DO it. I’m finding as I travel this path, there really is a difference.

Even after my hour of quality time with the Lord, I wasn’t better. The darkness had lessened some, but it was still there. Anger still clawed at me–threatened to turn me into a raving lunatic– I still felt alone, I still felt the seductive allure of my past calling to me. “Drink, Sare! It’ll make everything bearable. If you don’t care about anything, you won’t feel anything.”

Here’s a side note. I haven’t drank a single drop of alcohol in three years. I’d like to say this happened, because I knew I had a problem, but it didn’t. I stopped drinking mostly on accident. Three years later I consider it a happy accident, but at the time I didn’t even realize I wasn’t drinking away my problems. What happened was, I got hired on as a lifeguard and took my job seriously. I didn’t have enough time between shifts to drink and still feel secure in my ability to keep people safe.

When the dark takes over, like it did yesterday, it concerns me. Not just because it’s darkness and I’m a creature of the light, but because I worry how many times this can happen before my children are scarred by it. How many “Momma is feeling dark” days can I have before all they will remember about growing up is how angry I was? Let me just say, those worries do nothing to bring me closer to the light. Those worries don’t help me push back the darkness. In fact, I’m pretty sure those worries come from another place entirely, and that’s a place I don’t want to visit.

I know I’m new to this and that even people who have known God their entire lives have days where the darkness wants to consume them. Whenever the darkness starts pushing up on me, and I need to push it away, I repeat over and over the only verse I’ve managed to actually memorize. (That’s a lot harder than my daughter makes it look while memorizing verses for Awana!)

“Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me.”– Psalm 52:12

What are some verses you turn to when you need help to push back the dark?

Today, Lord I pray you will help me push away the darkness and allow my home to be a place of peace, love and joy. Amen.

Sare

Faith, In the Beginning, My Walk

The Jesus Diet

I need the LORD. Not just on bad days when  I've ate a Kit Kat and have come down from the sugar high, but every day.

Years ago I never expected to be the person I am today. A person who thrives on working out daily, and who is aware of the foods I put into my body. I won’t lie, I love cake and cookies, and it is a struggle to stop eating them once I start. However, a healthy diet, one that doesn’t make me crabby and lethargic, requires me to ignore those cravings and desires on a regular basis.

Now, contrary to popular belief, a diet isn’t all about denying yourself the ‘yummy’ things. In fact, a real diet isn’t about taking away. It’s about filling yourself with things that are good for you, things that make your body function like a well oiled machine. A body needs a wide variety of foods to provide nutrition and fuel. Yes, I could eat a Kit Kat bar for a quick energy boost, but because it isn’t nutritious, that energy will be short lived and cause me to feel lethargic and unhappy. For me, that usually takes less than an hour.

The same applies to our spiritual life and well being. As a Christian, I’ve realized that I function better, for longer periods of time, if I have a spiritual diet filled with prayer and Bible study. On the days when I’ve let “life” get in the way, and I haven’t made the time to seek Jesus and spend time in His Word, I feel much like I do after that Kit Kat bar. I’m unhappy, I’m lethargic, and suddenly bad habits start to slip back into my life.

My family starts noticing the difference, but more importantly, I notice the difference.

I need the LORD. Not just on bad days when  I’ve ate a Kit Kat and have come down from the sugar high, but every day. My best days are the days when I start with the LORD, seek Him throughout the day, and end the day with Him as well. When I turn to Him in joy as well as in need, and I make sure He is the center of my day, those days are spiritually filling. I’ve given my soul what it needs to be healthy and happy.

So, a Jesus diet isn’t about cutting Him out of my life, but about making sure I’m filling my life with enough of Him to keep my life running smoothly. The LORD created us to be great in Him. He doesn’t leave us alone to figure it out on our own, but He is there, always waiting for us to turn to Him.

Fill your spiritual cup with the LORD, turn to him in Thanksgiving as well as in need. Even when you don’t think you need Him, when you can find something else to give you that boost of energy–you need Him. I need Him. Turn to Him. Things are always better and more clear with His presence in your life.

A healthy diet is one filled with the LORD, Jesus.

 

Blessings,

Sare

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My Infancy in Christ

Just like I will always be there to help my son up, or make him feel better when he is hurt or scared, I know the LORD is there for me. Loving me, caring for me, and silently giving me strength to make it through life. I might be crawling still when it comes to my FAITH, and I may crawl in circles at times, but I never stop moving or trusting that He will be there to lift me up when I need it.

The other day I was watching my son play on the floor. He’d head for a toy, then suddenly veer a different direction and go for something else. His ten-month-old attention span got me thinking about my own attention span. 

Especially when it comes to Faith.

 This journey I’m on is different than anything I’ve experienced before. In a very real way, I’m an infant in my relationship with Jesus. I find myself crawling toward one idea, then something else catches my attention and I follow that.

There are times I wish I were more focused, and didn’t jump from idea to idea, and thought to thought; I am doing this for the right reasons, and I’m doing it with God before me, not behind me. 

I am taking my cues from Him.

It seems to be working out well, so far.

Some days are harder than others. There are days where, like my son I fall down and land on my butt. On those days I do just what he does, and I get up and try again.

I Know the LORD is There for Me

Just like I will always be there to help my son up, or make him feel better when he is hurt or scared, I know the LORD is there for me. Loving me, caring for me, and silently giving me strength to make it through life. I might be crawling still when it comes to my faith, and I may crawl in circles at times, but I never stop moving or trusting He will be there to lift me up when I need it.

Many blessings,
Sare

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Dunking for Jesus

My daughter just became a Daisy in Girl Scouts, and she did this in time for the tail end of cookie sales. So, of course, I took the cookies to the Women’s Bible Study at my church.

While there, both of our Pastors purchased a couple of boxes for their families. After doing so, we sat around with Pastor R and he said something that still makes me laugh.

Since we’re Baptist and everyone knows that Baptists love food, we’ve decided that Girl Scout cookies seem like the perfect thing to use during our private prayer time. Take a box of cookies, a glass of milk, and your Bible into your prayer closet (or where ever you go for your quality time with the LORD), and for every prayer you dunk a cookie.

Pastor R called it Dunking for Jesus.

Granted, he wasn’t serious, but it made my day. I think that during any walk with God, there needs to be some humor–and cookies. Preferably, Thin Mints or Samoas. 😉

And, in case you’re wondering–between that Women’s Bible Study and the Marines who work with my husband, my daughter sold 84 boxes of cookies. Not too bad for only doing it at the tail end of cookie season.

Have a Blessed Monday,

Sare