“I am weary, God, but I can prevail” (Proverbs 30:1 NIV)
Yesterday I attended my daughter’s final public school field trip. We visited the local zoo, and if I’m honest, I would have been happier staying at home and catching up on my own homework. (Shudder) This, of course, made me feel like the worst mother in the world. My daughter was beyond excited for the trip, and I couldn’t muster up the enthusiasm for a weak smile. Can I just add, I’ve never been good at faking emotions? People always know where they stand with me. This isn’t always good. Especially when dealing with a little girl who has a tender heart and a joyful spirit.
So, why was I acting like I was on my way to the gallows instead of an elementary school field trip? The older I get the less comfortable I am in a large group of people. Especially when the noise level is just one decibel below a rock concert. The constant noise and overwhelming energy levels batter me, making me mentally and physically feel like I spent the day in a mixed martial arts ring. However, I love my daughter and spending time with her is a joy. I will do just about anything for my kiddos. Including being responsible for other children who enjoyed disappearing, yelling, arguing, and being disrespectful to everyone from other children to the elderly gentleman who volunteered there.
By the end of the trip my entire body was tense, and I was bone deep weary. I also had a new appreciation for my children. Suddenly, my son’s fussiness from teething, and my daughter’s occasional forgetfulness when it comes to various responsibilities weren’t such a big deal.
Our LORD, won’t give us more than we can handle. It might seem like our situations are more than we can deal with, or we might have more stress than we think we can survive, but He knows what he is doing.
Yes, I am weary, but with the LORD guiding me, I will prevail.